edits and much more edits.
sorry you all, i did not reply to your tags, bad blog etiquette (learned from gwen). i was feeling rotten, but it cheered me up knowing you all were there tagging my blog. and caring. love you all.
the past week seemed to have lasted for eternity. but at the same time, it seems to have flown past.
i'm babbling.
so many things have happened within such a short time. and before i know it, it's back to school again.
let me fill you in. cashiering from 25th-28th at sitex 2004 at expo. unexpected shit happened. shit that i'll never forget in my whole life. shit that becomes nightmares everynight.
clubbing at chinablack with xinghui, keshia, charlie and isaac went great. i had so much fun. and it helped me get my mind off that. thanks for the great night, babes. i felt better after that. kesh, we did crazy things. things that i would have never imagined myself to do before. but it was a good experience hun! it was fun lahhh. omgosh. =] isaac, you himbo, thanks for holding on to my moolah and mobile with the spongebob squarepants wallpaper that night. and you're a not-bad dancer. haha. you deserve a great big hug. charlie rocks because he takes care of me and kesh. but he's a madass. hurhurhur. xinghui lost her voice and she complained that she did not get high. haha. wheee. i had so much fun!
encounter weekend from the 3rd to 5th. xinghui, jennifer, nadine, elissa, seokying, melissa, weiying, michele, eugene and dc were all there. i managed to forgive and forget. i was healed from the pain i suffered - all the pain in my life, but most importantly the most recent incident. i've sinned but now i'm clean again. cos His blood washed away my sins. and i love Him. and He loves me unconditionally. i've backslided a hell lot. and i felt so much closer to Him during that few days. but i hope the feeling doesn't fade away again... it shouldn't. i CRIED BUCKETS in the past few days. really BUCKETS. everytime somebody prayed for me or i thought about it, i would just cry. it was traumatic. let's not talk about the ugly stuff anymore. i just wanna close this chapter in my life and begin a new one. please pray that it does not come back to haunt me again.
and we rushed for the toilet today morning. we literally sprang outta bed and ran to the toilet to brush our teeth cos we were latttteeee! and nadine samy was leading worship.
S$1 instant noodles, lays classic, lays bbq, ruffles bbq, clorets, halls, weird tasting sandwiches, mine and nadine's lao hong timeout, seokie's un-lao-hong timeout, nadine's calbee spicy prawn snack, my cadbury fruit & nut, the packed breakfasts, lunches and dinners, melissa's sweets,
kok's sexy voice and disgusting burps,
seok's wound, burps and bimbo antics,
elissa's funny hair when she wakes up,
jennie's blurness and gullibleness,
nadine samy's indian blue bra that has been worn for 4 days and her prayers and hugs (she's selfish in hugs, but i got it. yay.),
weiying my sleep partner and her soft prayers
melissa's blurness when she whacked seokie's wound and melissa's shoulder for me to cry on and her prayers and
them just being around when i needed them.
i'll miss it all. and much much more.
thanks girls. you made me happy.
and i asked God why He was not there at night when it happened, why He allowed it to happen to His child... melissa said it was due to my past sins, i've left doors open. doors that will allow evil to enter. God could not do anything cos i had sinned before and i never confessed. so the door was left open. something along those lines lah.
nadine said it was a miracle. at least i was protected from that. thank you God. i thought i hated You in the first place for not being there that night. but i'm wrong. You were there. and You saw everything. You saw my helplessness. and you DID protect me. i love You.
to the sister: i'm disappointed the way you accused me. you hurt me so badly. instead of helping me, you run me down. good job.
get outta my life bastard.
holidays are over. school officially starts in approximately another 10 hours. i'm missing my classmates. so i'm glad i'll see you all, lovely peeeps. *mwwwah* love you all. see you in a bit.
BimboQueen
12/05/2004 11:24:00 pm
