i just have the sudden inspiration to write about you. well, not inspiration, itchy hands you can say. you used to be able to make me happy. as much as i hate to deny, we did have some good times together. well, not some. loads of it. and i hate the way i'm not able to click on your MSN nick to talk to you. it's not that i don't have the courage. i just don't want to. i don't want all the shit to repeat itself all over again. i don't want one thing to lead to another. i don't want to hurt anybody anymore. much more, hurt myself because of you. or to ruin my future because of you. you're not worth it. you can say that i've matured, or become much more sensible. and i owe that to you. i owe that to the pain you inflicted on me. we used to have so much to talk about. and it saddens me to see that we can't even talk anymore. and we probably will never be friends. yeah, i guess it's a love-hate relationship. i'm over you. and this time, that's the truth.
on a much lighter note, i just realised my NP ambassadors camp clashes with the class BBQ. but i'll leave early on saturday from sentosa. the thing ends at 10pm, but i'll most probably leave before 7pm, hopefully. i'm so sorry yihan! we were supposed to go shop for the groceries and stuff for the bbq. but i trust you'll do a good job on it. =) i know you will.
i've been home the past two days. what have i been doing? uh huh, sleeping. loads of it.
and there's beaching on wednesday.
power jam finals on thursday. i think i will go for the finals. i realy should cos RAFE's good and i don't wanna miss it! but i don't wanna piss my parents off. aiyah, i'll try to go. think serene think.
NP Ambassadors camp on friday and saturday.
T106 BBQ on saturday evening.
i'll have to give service a miss this week. =(
BimboQueen
10/26/2004 01:17:00 am
