shiujean: u kena ns lehz...
me: no.. i never
shiujean: yes, u go check today's star newspaper..
me (still in denial) : noooo. don't have.
shiujean: under johor section got your name. serene loo yee sing. ic no. 870919045052.... it's you what.
me: but i checked online. said don't have.
shiujean: online not accurate la. this one newspaper leh.. how can be wrong??
serene: fuck. how. omg. fuck fuck fuck.
shiujean: i kena too but i planning to defer lor.. relax.
serene: i wanna cry. i don't wanna go.
yes, i got picked for the fucking malaysia ns. it's supposedly randomly picked. why am i so unlucky? argh! can somebody just shoot me. so i'll just die and i won't have to go. it's only 3 months. but still. okay, i admit now. i am of the weaker sex. ns is a guy thing. i am a girl. not a guy. out of 400,000 i am the unlucky 80,000. if only i could be so lucky in buying toto, i'd win 20% in a year. i am still in a state of denial. i can't get over it. but it's true.
fuck. that time i checked online don't have. i even checked twice. when i checked again just now.. got! shitty booboos.
i talked to jared just now.. he went last year too. and he said it's pretty relaxed. girls have to wear long sleeves (yes! even under the hot sun!), girls need not cut their hair (phew!), girls need not go for jungle training (thank God!)... it made me feel a tad better.
okay, i am trying to analyse here, hoping that i'll be more comforted. i was so upset just now, i cried while telling saylin about it on the phone. i really cried. cos i really don't wanna go.
what if i get raped or molested? there are cases in the newspapers you know. fuck it again.
i can defer till after poly. but either ways, i still have to go. what if the deferrment appeal doesn't get through? then how? i have to quit poly for a semester? it's a fucking waste of time. sigh.
somebody shoot me please. *whines*
BimboQueen
10/02/2004 10:42:00 pm
