thank God, i am finally finished with writ comm essay, after so many days of procrastinating. i did it like the night before the due date. i shall not procrastinate and leave things to the last minute anymore (yeah, rrright. as if i will. if i do, it'll be so un-serene of me). but i think my essay sucks anyway. i always screw things up. and i only had two and a half hours of sleep last night. nope, i was not a walking zombie nor a black eyed PUNda.
mabes and me tried doing radio protools assignment today. and OMG, i just realised how silly in protools we actually are. we practically know nothing! zilch. we had to call jon for help like... every 10 minutes. jon's an ass. cos he "boomed" into our room twice. and twice he managed to scare the shitty booboos outta me and mabes. yes, pathetic but true.
after 2 hours of protools, we headed to SIM for lunch and there i met this guy. i can't remember his name, but he can remember mine. and we haven't seen one another for nearly five years. i asked him if he was still keeping in touch with daryil and i had a big shock when he told me daryil's in boys home. daryil? how is that possible? when i knew him back then... he was so different? what happened to him? he's the second ex of mine who ended up in boys' home. dreadful shock at midday. could it have come at a better time? daryil skipped his O's last year. i wonder how is he now. hope he's OK and when he's out of there, hope he changes for the better. i'll pray for you darling.
this was not the only major shock i received today. i just had a screwed up day. and i need a punchbag. any volunteers? sorry to all those people i snapped at. i couldn't control my temper. i'm a bitch. i've been feeling kinda insecure lately. over what? beats me. somebdoy give me security please. i need loads of it.
saylin, work hard for your promos okay. you'll always be my princess sally okay. and i'll always be yours and kiankee's princess looloo. don't slack anymore. it's 3 weeks to your promos. not much time left. and you're taking 4A's. so you gotta beat your brains out for school huh. don't be envious of me non-poly people. i am having a shit ass stressed workload now. the "stress" is starting to roll in. i can feel it. finally. and i thought i was abnormal. the next time somebody says poly is slack, i'll just kick you in the balls or jus bitchslap you. cos poly ain't slack.
and jon, you are crazy to say you like the feeling of stressness now. you deserve to be bitchslapped. ;)
this was whatt mummy said to me some time ago. and i think its funny. mummy: you should stop using tampons okay. young girls like you shouldn't be using tampons. me: why? but tampons are so comfortable and convenient. and i can go beach-ing with them. mummy: you might just lose your virginity.
what's with mothers and virginity? okay, not only mothers. what's with parents and virginity? i mean i think it's like the trend to sleep with your boyfriend nowadays. okay, maybe it's not a trend... but it's becoming so common for girls to lose it at the age of 15 or 16 or 17 or 18. okay, maybe my thoughts are just abnormal or something.
i miss bimbo madness tm. i miss b.o.m.b. i miss beepee days. i miss everything we used to do together. i just wanna turn back time. i hate my past. can i rub it off with an eraser? and start my life all over again? i am not wallowing in self pity. i won't cut myself again. i just want to love people and i want people to love me again. i just want to be happy... i am whining am i? okay. i shall stop.
BimboQueen
9/13/2004 08:48:00 pm
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The BimboQueen
Serene Loo;
Femme;
19 September 1987;
Nineteen going on Twenty;
Mass Communication Graduate;
Account Management Executive;
Nightlife;
Retail therapy & more retail therapy;
Very trigger happy;
hayzelle@hotmail.com
