i just disappointed my parents again. time and again. and they love me soo much and they care for me so much. i abused their trust and i took advantage of their love. i've been a bad girl, a horrid daughter. i am such a bitch. i don't even know why i did what i did. i should hang myself. but seriously, i feel suicidal. i feel lost. God, will you please hold my hand? i really need you right now.
nobody will understand what i m going through right now. the heartbreak of losing everyone's trust. but yes, i brought it upon myself. so if anyone's to blame, it's me. i really regret what i did. i know i cant turn back time. but i just hope that they'll trust me again. i abused their trust. i hope they'll give me one more chance. and love me like they used to.
i am so sorry. and no matter what i say now, it makes no difference. i guess i just have to earn back their trust. i miss my friends. at times like this especially. i miss weikean and xinghui and saylin. they were always there for me. but they aren't now. i cant blame them. we all have our own lives now. nothing can change that. i cant expect them to check on me day in day out. i just miss you all. =( *pouts*
BimboQueen
8/22/2004 10:41:00 pm
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The BimboQueen
Serene Loo;
Femme;
19 September 1987;
Nineteen going on Twenty;
Mass Communication Graduate;
Account Management Executive;
Nightlife;
Retail therapy & more retail therapy;
Very trigger happy;
hayzelle@hotmail.com
