i m feeling considerably much better today. but mum's still not talking to me. i just hope time will heal her wounds. pray for me people.
spent the morning in school today, doing much idling. i wanted to researdch on surrogacy in the school library, nbut shitty doodoos, they only have one videotape on surogacy. it's actually a court case on the moral implications of surrogacy. just what i am writing about. but oh well, didn't manage to find any book references. *pouts* while i was watching the videotape in the media room, there was this middle aged woman irritating the shit outta me by talking bloody loudy on her mobile. omg. what's happened to manners? i blasted the volume on my headphones to the maximum, but i could still here her irritating voice yakking away. i was just about to remind her after tolerating for ten minutes... but she got off the line and walked outta the media room. some people. just so inconsiderate. doinks.
whoopie daisies! i managed to meet up with saylin, kiankee and xinghui today. it really makes m happy seeing them, cos we seldom meet up. we had lunch at pastamania, dessert at swensens. haha, but we started with dessert then only main course. haha. total doinkers. i told kiankee about the whole event. but he wasnt that shocked. i expected more shock-ness.i told saylin the night before on the phone. he just went silent. oh well, that's the reaction i expected.
i feel so distant from him. i feel like i duno him anymore. we are just like total strangers now. we cant carry on a conversation smoothly anymore. i've put in effort, but, did he even try to make our friendship work? sigh. i don't know. i've done what i could. the rest is up to him. i really miss the times we shared. =( i miss him caring for me like a sister. i miss being able to have him to listen to all my problems. i miss him for not being around me at such a difficult time. he doesn't even know what shit i am going through. oh well. it's up to him at the end of the day. all i can say is i really miss him.
my essay outline is almost done. sooo.... yeah, i m pretty happy about it. yayness. i can devote my time to studying webgraphics for tomorrow. i suck in adobe photoshop. somebody help me. please! argh.
BimboQueen
8/25/2004 11:08:00 pm
